Love Disaster

I am enjoying this tour so far.
i’m learning that being a support for a tour is all about trying to be amazing despite everything else. despite delayed schedules and rushed soundchecks, despite disinterested or yet-to-arrive audiences.
these are not my shows so dave (my tour manager) and i do what we can in what space we are given.
it’s a pretty good life skill i reckon. to be comfortable sitting in that space where someone else is more important than me, still giving it 100%, but knowing that at the end of the day i’m just along for the ride.
saying that this tour has been pretty cushty so far. the fossil collective guys are great. super friendly and welcoming. so i can’t complain and i’m not complaining.
doncaster
i’ve played gigs in front of silent crowds and i’ve played gigs in front of completely noisy crowds. but until doncaster i hadn’t played a gig in front of a mostly polite and silent crowd but with one or two guys talking and laughing with no flippin awareness of anything. pretty annoying.
when these kinds of people talk through your entire set you kind of write them off and whisper expletives at them when they walk by. but to my surprise the noisiest guy came up and bought my cd. so now i don’t know what to think.
it was also pretty strange to go back to sine.fm for a session. i’d completely forgotten that i went there when i played for stars and sons and we tried to do 30 gigs in 7 days. don’t ask.
manchester
before we set off to manchester we had a breakfast of pancakes and champagne, standard.
the deaf instititute is a great venue. the biggest mirror ball i’ve ever seen. my manager had told me he thought putting pâté on the rider was too much, too waitrose. but it was there waiting for me. from tesco though but i’ll let them off.
after the show a lady called becky came up and threw a question at me. she asked me for someone so young, where do i get the experience to write songs like that?
‘errrrm’
i can’t really remember what i said, but i have no idea what the answer is.
on reflection, i dont think i should know. i’m not really *trying* to write songs that are emotionally resonant, i don’t research resonant topics and craft songs around them. it’s not conscious.
i just write what interests me. and those interests are born from th culmination of my entire life, i guess.
i think that if i could tell you why my songs connect with you and why they are meaningful, well, that would be a bit weird wouldn’t it?
but the fact that my songs are connecting with people, both younger and older folk is amazing to me and i cant quite get my head around it. it’s just great.
i’m loving having these little chats with folk like Becky and also Mark who made me write a rude message on his cd, oh and his face.